A venting thread!

I wanted to vent, and thought here would be a wonderful place to do so!! In high school I weighed 130lbs and loved myself I felt very comfortable with myself my weight and was confidant! When I was 15 I started gaining weight and not being able to control it, as well as never having a period. We went to the doctor she told me to stop eating so much and work out. I explained to her my work out routine, I played varsity soccer which consisted of a 30 minute workout that involved various stretches a weight ball and after that we ran between 2-4 miles per practice depending on the coachâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s mood, I was vegetarian then ate no fast food, did not drink soft drinks. My only drinks were Water and EnerGreens( a really awesome vegetarian drink that was discontinued) They sent of several tests including a thyroid test all came back negative, The dr suggested keeping a journal of all my daily activities and meals for one month by the end of the month I was up to 140, still eating healthy a normal day was a tofu omelet with mushrooms onions green and red peppers. for breakfast an apple for midmorning snack, lunch was a salad with some sort of vinaigrette dressing and usually an organic cup of yogurt dinner varied sometimes Id have vegetarian lasagna or spaghetti with each meal I had energreens to drink the rest of the day I drunk water. I ran every day 2 miles whether soccer season was in or not and also went to the gym to work-out for an hour. I took my journal back to the dr at the end of the month she couldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t find anything in there that would cause me to gain weight so she asked if I was lying about what I wrote. They ran more blood tests all came back negative in 6 months I was up to 180 lbs still no reason for gaining that they could find. A year later they ran many many more blood test this time the results werenâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t so Good I had hypothyroidism, they also checked for PCOS (different dr) which was also positive. Now I am up to 270 and I hate myself, I no longer feel attractive, I hate going out in public I feel so self conscious, I am extremely picky with what I wear and will often change clothes several times before deciding on something I think I can live with being seen in. I want to be what I once was; I want to have confidence again. I have reached a point in my life where if I was offered a chance to live 5 years model thin and die at the end of 5 years I would ask where I should sign to accept the deal. I still watch what I eat, no fast food, I use olive oil to cook with. I do eat chicken and fish and some wild game now(such as quail), though I would like to go back to being vegetarian again...Here are is what I looked like before my weight gain, Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m sorry its a bit small and what I look like now
Before

me at 14

me at 16

sorry they are so blurry, I took a picture of my picture with my digital camera.
I have more then this, I need to get a scanner to give you guys a better idea.
Now



I just donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t feel like myself, I am on meds now to control the hypothyroidism, and though it helps me maintain it doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t help me lose

Sorry this is so long, I just needed to vent!

I completely understand... In highschool I weigh 120 - now I weigh 220. I can't loose it. No matter what I eat, how much I excersize... it won't go away. I blame my anti-depressents.

I blame it on the anti depressants too!!! I have been on Lexapro since my dad passed away and my weight has gone up significantly!!

Am I correct in reading you have PCOS? If I remember correctly I was watching a show with a woman that was also PCOS and that alone caused her to gain a lot of weight. And because I can not remember exactly what she took that helped her to lose the weight. So here is a site that deal with weight gain and PCOS. http://dreamababy.com/pcos-insulin.htm

Thanks everyone I added a few more pictures, so you guys could get a better idea, they are still a bit blurry. and yes Ping PCOS is a cause of my weight gain, Ive tried several things and so far nothing has worked!


Ping, thanks very much for the site!!!

I have lost 15lbs I am very happy with that!!! Ping I cannot tell you how much I appreciated that link

How very, very frustrating!!! I'm thin except for my belly; I can bloat up unbelievably fast. I've spent thousands of dollars on testing, with no results. Except for kidney stones & the occasional kidney infection and the fact that my hematcrit is sky-high, but I test negative for pernicious anemia, I am very healthy. I've gone to all kinds of doctors; my body fat is low, but I'm as bloated as a sponge along my middle, including my back - so I can relate, esp. since my grandson had even asked me if I was going to have a baby. The doctors all say that it's water retention, but 2 urologists and 1 internist say no to diuretics --- it is ssoooo frustrating!!
I am sending prayers and vibes that you find the answer to losing that unwanted weight!!

Originally Posted by Brandi

I have lost 15lbs

I am very happy with that!!! Ping I cannot tell you how much I appreciated that link

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WTG I am so proud for you. And I am glad the linked helped and I am glad I remembered watching something about that on tv.

Sounds like Ping's link is working for you!

I have nothing to add since I don't know the condition except for the continued success!

I just now found this thread, and I'm so glad ping's link helped you!! And congrats on the weight loss!! How old are you (if you don't mind me asking). I used to not have to worry about anything until I hit about 35 and quit an active job. Metabolism is a meaning after that age.

One thing I want to tell you. You may look in the mirror and not see your beauty, but when I looked at your picture the first thing I thought was "omg, look at those eyes!!!" You have beautiful eyes and they are the window to the soul. In my eyes, you are beautiful now.

Originally Posted by Brandi

I have lost 15lbs

I am very happy with that!!! Ping I cannot tell you how much I appreciated that link

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You lost 15 pounds in 5 days?!

Aaw sweetie, after reading your first post I'd just like to say that you really shouldn't feel so bad - I think you're gorgeous! I can understand why you feel the way you do though and why you want to change the trend - from the looks of things, Ping's help is really working for you - GREAT big congratulations on that one! Just remember that no matter how you look, or what your weight, it's what's inside that really matters the most - and we all think the world of you!

Originally Posted by Natalie_ca

You lost 15 pounds in 5 days?!

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yea, that is often the case. When i first started my diet, i dropped 21 pounds in a week. lol man i wish it had stay at that level. after that is slows down, and the long war aganist the fat begins. I could deal with the 4 or 5 pounds.
but the times where it was 1 or 2, or even less then 1, and yes sometimes none, I wanted to bang my head aganist the wall in anger. hmm 15 months to lose most of my excess weight. been trying to lose the last 30 pounds now for a year(and not have much luck with that)

Brandi it is a lot of work, and like you , i have issues that caused the weight gain, and that also get in the way of losing it. I wish you the best of luck.

No not in 5 days since the middle of Feb. I am 20 I will be 21 in April Thanks everyone for your comments!! It really means a lot to me!!

Originally Posted by Brandi

No not in 5 days since the middle of Feb. I am 20 I will be 21 in April

Thanks everyone for your comments!! It really means a lot to me!!

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Even so thats an amazing jump start on your weight loss journey. Remember if you ever need anything the forum is just but a post away.