Originally Posted by catloverin_ks
Last night after everyone layed down, I started watching some youtube videos.
....then a video I came across had a song that was played for my dad at his funeral!
Does anyone else do this?? Just sit and watch sad and depressing things??
Yes, I've gone on YouTube looking to listen to a particular song, and one thing will lead to another, next thing I know the sun is coming up and I've spent the whole night watching tributes.
Originally Posted by calico2222
I do that sometimes...watch or listen to something I know will make me sad. I think its my mind's way of letting me release whatever has been building up. Like, it needs a catalyst, something to give me a reason to start crying so I can turn it around to what is really bothering me. Or, maybe I'm just strange....
But, I think it's healthy to cry. And, actually needed for sanity's sake.
I have a playlist of songs that I know will make me tear up. I think you are right, sometimes it is kind of cathartic to get it out sometimes.
I hate to admit this out loud (even on paper) but there are several times I have listened to songs for the sole reason of planning Joshua's funeral. One night after a rough jaunt in the hospital I stayed up all night not only listening to tributes, but planning bible verses and whether or not to release doves or balloons at the grave site.
This subject came up at my Parents of Childhood Cancer Support group and it is surprising how common this is. Even though Joshua's cancer has a high survival rate (75%) the what-ifs (1 out of 4 is still too high for me) cant help but creep their way in.
Some parents admit they are glad they thought about it beforehand (no matter how guilty they felt at the time) because when the time came, their mind was too clouded and they were thankful they had some sort of idea...
Crikes - I dont know how I went off on a tangent... anyway, yeah, I've done it before.