Since around October/November I've been having these really odd dreams, pretty well every night. I don't sleep well anymore.
They are usually so weird and emotionally upsetting that I force myself to wake up out of them.
When I do wake up, I sit on the edge of my bed trying to figure the dream out. But by a few hours later, most of the time I forget what the dream was.
But there are a few that have stuck in my mind.
One was that I think I was being stalked by a killer. I remember he had a gun and had me locked upstairs. Then he was gone. So I took my cats, one by one to the neighbors car, and put them in. As well as my dogs. My sister was already in the car. Then my mum drive us all to a guy's house.. and we stayed in the apartment over his garage. Except when you went into the apartment, it turned into a four level split.
Anyhow. All of a sudden I had more cats than what I have. Some of them from the rescue I had just quit volunteering at. I remember feeling upset.. like really upset.
And thats all I can really remember about that dream.
The next one I remember... Someone was vandalizing out house. Tearing up the siding and spray painting the siding and stuff. We couldn't figure out who was doing it. Then one night I was walking my dog, Apollo, and saw a guy in between my house and the fence separating the property from the neighbors. I threatened him with my dog, and he ran. Then I chased him with Apollo. But Apollo was running too fast and the leash pulled out of my hands. Then I lost them both. I was looking for them through the rail roads at he end of my road.. and continued looking through a jungle
. I eventually gave up and went home. Then I found Apollo laying on the front lawn of a neighbor a few houses down from me. He was just laying there. I ran p to him and he was bleeding. He was stabbed multiple times in the chest area. I was covered in his blood. I called my vet who came down and opened his chest up. I remember this being really weird because his chest was hollow.. like there were no organs.. I could see the ribs and the flesh and everything.. but no lungs, no heart.. no nothing.
Then he said he couldn't help him and told me to put him to sleep. So I did. And I cried. And cried. I then forced myself to wake up.. and my chest hurt and felt like I had been crying heavily. First thing I did when I woke up was go find Apollo. It felt SO REAL. The emotions and everything. No dream has ever been like these ones that I've had the past few months.
The next one is one I just had the other night. I can't remember most of the details.. just a few things.
All I pretty well remember is my mums boyfriend being a murder that picked up girls and killed them after he dates them for awhile. I told my mum but she didn't believe me and she continued to go out with her. Then one night he turned into someone else? He looked different but was the same guy. I don't remember how it happened but she was dating someone else after a bit. And the old boyfriend kept driving past the house, looking all malicious and stuff. It was really weird. But thats all I can remember of it.
I am thinking out starting a dream diary.. so that every time I wake up, I right the dream down so I can remember it and keep track.
But anyway... does anyone know why I could suddenly be having these weird dreams... and what the underlying meaning and stuff is? I have no idea. And I am getting tired of it.
I don't even want to go to bed most of the time because I don't want to dream. But I am so tired because the dreams seem to take it out of me. And it feels like I don't even sleep at all.
They are usually so weird and emotionally upsetting that I force myself to wake up out of them.
When I do wake up, I sit on the edge of my bed trying to figure the dream out. But by a few hours later, most of the time I forget what the dream was.
But there are a few that have stuck in my mind.
One was that I think I was being stalked by a killer. I remember he had a gun and had me locked upstairs. Then he was gone. So I took my cats, one by one to the neighbors car, and put them in. As well as my dogs. My sister was already in the car. Then my mum drive us all to a guy's house.. and we stayed in the apartment over his garage. Except when you went into the apartment, it turned into a four level split.
Anyhow. All of a sudden I had more cats than what I have. Some of them from the rescue I had just quit volunteering at. I remember feeling upset.. like really upset.
And thats all I can really remember about that dream.
The next one I remember... Someone was vandalizing out house. Tearing up the siding and spray painting the siding and stuff. We couldn't figure out who was doing it. Then one night I was walking my dog, Apollo, and saw a guy in between my house and the fence separating the property from the neighbors. I threatened him with my dog, and he ran. Then I chased him with Apollo. But Apollo was running too fast and the leash pulled out of my hands. Then I lost them both. I was looking for them through the rail roads at he end of my road.. and continued looking through a jungle
Then he said he couldn't help him and told me to put him to sleep. So I did. And I cried. And cried. I then forced myself to wake up.. and my chest hurt and felt like I had been crying heavily. First thing I did when I woke up was go find Apollo. It felt SO REAL. The emotions and everything. No dream has ever been like these ones that I've had the past few months.
The next one is one I just had the other night. I can't remember most of the details.. just a few things.
All I pretty well remember is my mums boyfriend being a murder that picked up girls and killed them after he dates them for awhile. I told my mum but she didn't believe me and she continued to go out with her. Then one night he turned into someone else? He looked different but was the same guy. I don't remember how it happened but she was dating someone else after a bit. And the old boyfriend kept driving past the house, looking all malicious and stuff. It was really weird. But thats all I can remember of it.
I am thinking out starting a dream diary.. so that every time I wake up, I right the dream down so I can remember it and keep track.
But anyway... does anyone know why I could suddenly be having these weird dreams... and what the underlying meaning and stuff is? I have no idea. And I am getting tired of it.
I don't even want to go to bed most of the time because I don't want to dream. But I am so tired because the dreams seem to take it out of me. And it feels like I don't even sleep at all.
