She's so beautiful. I cry for my black cat also, who died of renal failure. When a pet has been in the family, he is family, and we have to grieve. Yesterday, when I spoke with a member about her cat who has CRF, and told her about Blackie, the tears flowed as if it had just happened. But it was fifteen years ago. The love never stops! You won't forget your Angel Magic, and that's as it should be, but I believe you will see her again. I pray that God eases your pain. It won't go away, but as someone said, you learn to live with it, and you will have times of respite from the grief. God bless.