Day 3 - made it through

I can't believe it's been 3 days since Lyndsey died. I have to go back to work tomorrow. I don't want to go back, but I don't think I can stay at home - too many reminders. My heart goes out to all of you who have had this loss and had to go on with life.

If you believe in the rainbow bridge, which I do now, then you will like this. The day before Lyndsey died, my husband was taking our girls to school and he said "hey come outside, there's a rainbow". Sure enough, there was a rainbow and you could see the beginning and the end. Then, two days after he died (when I first read about the rainbow bridge), I was crying to my husband in our bedroom and a rainbow showed up on the wall. I still can't figure out what was making the prism. Today, my daughter saw me crying and drew me a picture of a rainbow. When I asked her what made her draw a rainbow she said she drew it so it could dry up my tears.

Remember that rainbows are signs of hope. Each day will become easier and Lyndsey will always be a part of you.

And you must also think of the possibility that Lindsey is sending you a sign that he's in a much better place and that he will meet you at that rainbow one day. Maybe one day soon you will be able to consider sharing your love and passion with another little ball of fluff, not to take Lyndsey's place, but to give another kitty the chance to see what it's like to be loved by such a passionate soul as you.

I hope going back to work gives you some hours of distraction, at least.

I know how hard it still is. I look forward each day to bedtime so I won't have to miss him during the sleeping hours.

I love that you all have such wonderful pictures of your babies. I hope this picture of Lyndsey shows up. He is in his favorite spot, in the sun in the driveway.

What a cutie he was.

I have a special soft spot for black and whites. My cat was a b&w shorthair as was my first cat decades ago.

Aww that's so sweet of your daughter. I'd frame that rainbow and put it in just the right place as a reminder! I'm sorry for your loss. It is so hard to get through those first days and weeks. And you expressed it just as I felt when Jake died. It was like, "Whew... I made it another day."