Wednesday DT

I am so frustrated! I could just scream. The people that Jake was supposed to mediate with tomorrow emailed and said that Jake was supposed to provide the ASL interpreter himself, when under the Americans with Disabilities Act, they are supposed to do it. I am so tired of their discrimination, and it looks as if the meeting may be delayed. Again! I feel as if they are trying to get out of it.
Yesterday I was sick with a stomach upset and its still not quite better, I have been so sick with worry with a lot of things, I hope I am not giving myself an ulcer. I am also writing it in my journal so lets hope I can lessen my frustration.

All three cats slept with us on the bed last night, it was cute.

I am trying to distract myself by playing a playstation game (yup, I still play those at the grand old age of 26) and they provide a good distraction. However, I dont play those violent fighting games, just those role playing games - the one I am playing, you have to recruit 108 characters for the true runes...long story, never mind.

I hope everyone has a splifficating day!

The advocate called them and told them to make sure an interpreter was booked and now one is. Lets hope for the best tomorrow for Jake. But it still doesnt get rid of my frustration.

Good luck Kellye! I hope everything goes ok for you.

I'm getting a little bit done, around the house. I've been up since 2:45 a.m. If I don't start getting some decent nights' sleep, soon, I'm afraid that I'll get sick. When I am asleep, Bill says that I have bad dreams - mumbling, tossing and turning and, occasionally, smacking him. Fortunately, he doesn't hold it against me.

Got some good news in my e-mail, yesterday. Congress passed the legislation to allowed veterans' widows to remarry, after age 55 and keep their pensions. Since I'm 45, now, Bill and I are going to have a loooong engagement.

Happy hump day.

Kellye, I wish the very best for you and Jake. Of course we don't want to lose you, so if you go home you have to promise to visit us every day. By the way, I still enjoy video games. I don't have the Game Cube or Playstation, just the old Nintendo, the very old Commodore 64, and this computer, of course. It's a good way to just chill after a hard day. You can put your worries aside for a while. I used to go play games after every final test in college and at the end of a school day when I was teaching. It releases tension, even though it's substitute tension, come to think of it! I guess we are silly creatures, aren't we?

Talk about frustration Kiwideus!!!!



Take a d-e-e-p breath! This frustration is doing more harm on your body and will not help the end result. Take it one step at a time.

Have you ever looked into yoga or meditation tapes?

We're all hoping for the quickest solution to get you and hubby back to your son and family.

Chin up!



On my end, today is working out quite well. Found two job postings that look interesting. And they are just around the corner from where I live. The most frustrating thing on my end is moving away from Toronto. Once we did that this past summer, all the jobs seem to far away from our current location. Plus, we only have one car so I would need a job that I could get to with local transit.

Wish me luck!

Jeanie, I promise that when I go home to NZ, I will still visit tcs - I cannot leave, its like you have cast a spell on me to stay!

That brick wall looks good Kass. I tried yoga but I couldnt get into it. Video games do help though.

I remember the commodore 64 - that was my very first computer.

I now have 2 cats following me everywhere - Peedoodle is an independent cat, and does his own thing, but with Kahu and Penka, everywhere I go, they follow. I sat on the loo the other day, and since I was home alone, i didnt close the door and Penka came and sat on the seat behind me! :tounge2: I have never had a cat do this to me LOL.

I will try and stay calm. *breathing deeply*

What? You've never had a bathroom supervisor? But---buttttt, (gasp!) that's their job! Not even to wait while you shower? or ---anything? I'll bet you've been closing the door and preventing these poor babes from doing their jobs. Hmmmm, do we report you for cruelty or the cats for neglecting their duties??

Have a piece of chocolate. It releases endorphins, or something! You might get hyper, but you'll be happier. Just ONE little piece, now, and then exercise to pay for it!

Peedoodle sits in the bathroom while I have a shower but I have never had a cat sit on the loo itself with me. Dang you make me laugh Jeanie! What am I going to do when you report me for cruelty?

Originally posted by Jeanie G.
I don't have the Game Cube or Playstation, just the old Nintendo, the very old Commodore 64, and this computer, of course.

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My partner Rob still has his Commodore 64 in the original packaging (with close to 40 games I think)and I have the Colecovision game unit.

Rob even downloaded some of his missing Commodore 64 games so he could reminisce. Talking about all this stuff, I'm feeling old!

Rob even downloaded some of his missing Commodore 64 games so he could reminisce. Talking about all this stuff, I'm feeling old!

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Oh no -- you're definately not OLD! A couple years ago I downloaded Questron (I used to play it on my brother's Commodore 64) to play on my PC. Two rebuilds later, I have lost the game. Maybe I can find it on the net again!

I just loved "Mr. Do" for the Commodore 64. He dropped cherries (or apples) on top of monsters! And,if you were really lucky and killed the really bad monsters just the right way, you got a DIAMOND! I loved it. I still play on occasion, but my score has gone up to 2 million or more, and nothing new happens. I still have loads of men left, so it's not as much fun. I know these games must suffer in comparison to the new "virtual reality" games, and must look silly, but I don't know any better, so I'm ok! The new toys for children will blow your mind, too. I thought my kids had great toys, but the new ones are unbelievable.

Kellye, you're a nice person. When the kitty cat cops come, just surrender; they might show you mercy. Plead ignorance or insanity, and promise never to close the door again.

Wow, well all of you know how I have been the last few days, worrying, frustrated, the list goes on.
I just got home and I checked the mail..
There was an envelope from some ministry that I had never seen before and there was a book of poems inside it and it made me feel better. There was one poem that made me think about all this and try and stay calm.

Hope for Tomorrow

There's hope for tomorrow,
Even when things look dim;
There's hope for tomorrow
When you put your trust in Him.
Though darkness surrounds you,
He's always there,
With arms that will hold you
In His loving care.
Just when you thought
You had lost everything,
He's right there beside you
With comfort to bring.
And you'll know assurance,
He'll never depart,
For He's dwelling inside you,
Right there in your heart.

By Connie J Kirby

This book was for the families and victims of 9-11 but when I opened it up that was the first poem I saw.

Kellye, are you familiar with this poem? I read it and it helps bring things back to perspective:

Desiderata (Something desired as essential)


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.


Max Ehrmann, 1927

Kass - I am not familiar with this poem but it is beautiful. Thank you! I am going to print it out and put it somewhere where I can see it. Thanks!

I just had a lady call me on the phone and yell at me. I don't understand why people have to be so rude. I only answer the phone around here. Too much is happening at work today. A trucking company lost one of our shipments! I've spent all day trying to explain that we haven't recieved it, playing phone tag. They keep saying that we did get it! My boss is being sued by his former land lord. The landlord making up all kinds of lies. I have been searching for the 30 day notice we gave him. I can't find it and it's stressing me out! There is a bright glimmer of hope! I'm leaving for L.A. tommorrow! I need a vacation after today! I won't be back until Sunday evening. I just got a call they found our shipment! Hurray!

Nenners -

Doesn't that just make you crazy? I'm guessing they don't even feel better after yelling at you because the shipment is still lost!! (duh) We get yelled at on the phone quite a bit and I work at a church (Do you worship God with that mouth?!)

Enjoy the sunshine!! (Enjoy a little for me too )

When all is said and done, that's what it's all about isn't it? Thank you both for posting those beautiful thoughts. There is so much for which we can be grateful, despite the problems we face. Just gazing at one flower, a kitten, or a rainbow is reassurance that we are loved more than we are capable of comprehending.

I won't be around too much for a while. My supervisor "has a lot going on" and when she gets mad about everything she finds every little thing to rag on me about. This and "personal email" are the big things that "have to change" (even though a few months ago she said it was fine if I was online ). There's more to it than just this, but I don't have time to get into it now.

I'll still try to check in and keep up here in the Lounge, but I probably won't have time to reply to everyone like I have before. I just wanted to let everyone know what's going on, and why I'm doing a disappearing act.

Kellye, I hope the meeting goes well for Jake, and that it does actually happen! Nenners and Jan, I answer the phone too, I feel your frustration. People are such jerks sometimes, aren't they?