Hi all,
Sorry I haven't been around much. I seem to be having a tough time although I am not quite sure why.
I am still at my awful, dead-end job. I should be learning how to create a resume and looking for a job that could pay my bills, but I'm not. I feel crushed by lack of finances. I am not really qualified to do anything but what I've been doing for the last 15 years. Instead of being a joiner while in school, I worked. So I don't have that type of thing to add to a resume.
I should be cleaning my apartment. It looks worse than any house I have ever seen. While I was in school I had the excuse that I was too busy to clean. Well, I have been out of school for 3 months and I live in a pigsty. I feel sorry for the cats
Piles of stuff everywhere, dishes up to there, boxes all over, don't think Daphne even knows what a vacuum cleaner is. It is awful. It is so tiny, it is tough to organize anything.
I am scared spitless of the resume and interview process. I have a social phobia as it is so this is like climbing a mountain. Makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it.
My sister leaves for Germany in seven days. I am going to miss her so much. She's my best friend.
Every day when I get off work, I tell myself I will spend at least an hour cleaning, that I don't have to clean it all at once. But, once I get home, it doesn't happen. I just hide from everything and everybody. I stay up too late at night and am exhausted all day. Not sure why I do that either. Seems I am not the Queen of Self-Awareness.
I don't think it is depression - I can smile (and mean it) and I don't have the heavy, dark cloud feeling. It probably is anxiety. Have never taken meds for anxiety and couldn't afford them now anyway. I just need to find a way out of this rut. I hate it. Any tips?
Sorry this is so long - just thought someone here may have gone through something similar.
Sorry I haven't been around much. I seem to be having a tough time although I am not quite sure why.
I am still at my awful, dead-end job. I should be learning how to create a resume and looking for a job that could pay my bills, but I'm not. I feel crushed by lack of finances. I am not really qualified to do anything but what I've been doing for the last 15 years. Instead of being a joiner while in school, I worked. So I don't have that type of thing to add to a resume.
I should be cleaning my apartment. It looks worse than any house I have ever seen. While I was in school I had the excuse that I was too busy to clean. Well, I have been out of school for 3 months and I live in a pigsty. I feel sorry for the cats
I am scared spitless of the resume and interview process. I have a social phobia as it is so this is like climbing a mountain. Makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it.
My sister leaves for Germany in seven days. I am going to miss her so much. She's my best friend.
Every day when I get off work, I tell myself I will spend at least an hour cleaning, that I don't have to clean it all at once. But, once I get home, it doesn't happen. I just hide from everything and everybody. I stay up too late at night and am exhausted all day. Not sure why I do that either. Seems I am not the Queen of Self-Awareness.
I don't think it is depression - I can smile (and mean it) and I don't have the heavy, dark cloud feeling. It probably is anxiety. Have never taken meds for anxiety and couldn't afford them now anyway. I just need to find a way out of this rut. I hate it. Any tips?
Sorry this is so long - just thought someone here may have gone through something similar.