Oh, darlin, I'm so sorry! They should have been much more clear about what the plan was. I can imagine what a let-down that must be for you.
But please go ahead and keep this appointment, even if you don't feel she's the right therapist for you -- it's been a long while, and you've both changed... things might click this time. At the very least, it will be a chance to sit down and talk to someone,
just say the words,
But I would go ahead and make an appointment today with another
therapist somewhere else -- just to have it on the schedule as soon as possible, rather than waiting until after Tuesday to call. You can always cancel later if you decide to stay with the first therapist.
And about medications: with all due respect to others and their opinions, I want to say MEDICATIONS CAN BE ABSOLUTELY CRUCIAL to the success of treatment. Because it's not
"all in your head" -- it's in your brain chemistry, too, and you can't just will
that to change. What nearly everyone needs is a combination of medication to help balance the brain chemistry and therapy to put the past in its place and break old habitual ways of thinking.
So please don't take the Tom Cruise view that medication is just an "easy way out," a surface gloss-over. It can
be that if it's misused or continued after it's no longer needed, but for most people, medication is an absolutely necessary tool of treatment.
Please try not to be discouraged. It's a shame the system is so slow to respond, a shame it takes so long to get appointments. But you can do this. Frustrated as you are, you're already in a more powerful place than you were yesterday -- you've started things rolling, and that was the hardest part.
Slow and sloppy as the system may be, I promise there is
help for you if you can just stick with it. Don't give up, okay?
And if you want to unload, rant, cry, scream, whatever... I'm a good listener, and I'd love to help if I can. And what happens in PM stays