Originally Posted by april31
I dont want to go today. What happened to the person who used to just sit there lol. Its not that she isnt easy to talk to she too easy. She has me talking about things I wasnt ready to or wanted to.
April...Yup...If they are worth going to, they sure do know how to push the right ("feels" like wrong) buttons, don`t they?
When I went for counseling for childhood sexual abuse, I had the feelings of not want to talk about that too....but I made up my mind before i went that I WAS GOING TO TALK & LET HIM ASK THE QUESTIONS.....if for no other reason than I wanted to get my $$$$$ worth! LOL (I`m frugal with a buck, trust me!)
In the long run I was glad, because sorting through my "stuff" , while very difficult at the time, is WELL WORTH IT later. I learned soooo much about myself that I never understood...and I like me , so much more now. I finally feel at home in my own self, and have also a better understanding of other people. I don`t "judge" nearly so quickly...cause you just never know the other persons life story.
I hope you continue to go to counseling, to listern and honestly think through and answer the questions and really ponder your life issues and talk AND FEEL them through.....In the end you will certainly sleep better...and that no-sleeping is CRAZY MAKING...trust me...I KNOW!
God bless you...I`m praying for you!
Feel free to PM me if you like.....I can "hear" whatever you have to say. (After working with quite a few women in small group settings I don`t think I could be surprised by anything anyone would tell me.)