I never thought I would be writing a story of my own in here. Not for a long while anyway.
You may remember my story of a litter of kittens being kept in a laundry. I may not have said it at the time as I had no proof or I may have because I was really angry. They were also mistreated. I have only since found this out.
I kept one and named her Doofus. She was always doing something silly to amuse us. As days grew into weeks, it became apparent that something wasn't right. It wasn't that she was ill or physically hurt. She had something in her mind that troubled her. Something we tried to fix but failed.
Doofus had nightmares, ones where she would cry out and look in distress. We'd wake her from those and settle her down. Nothing seemed to lessen them. At times, my partner or I would think they had only to discover that one of us had calmed her down earlier.
Then at 8 weeks, she began going to the toilet on all the couches. At first we thought it was territorial or that maybe she was caught short. But after observing her, this wasn't the case. She deliberately went there to relieve herself. Doofus knew where the litter was and used it but at times things would just lapse.
After a month of cleaning, trying lemon and orange scents, pheromone sprays and moving the litter we were at our wits ends. We talked to the vet and there was no guarantee that Doofus would stop it. You see, when she was kept in the laundry with her littermates, attention only came when someone went in to clean the floor of the wastes. For Doofus, she was trying to get our attention. She didn't need to do that. We played with her. I talked to her, petted her, cuddled her during the day as I have the time at the moment. She was a gentle kitten and knew not to bring the claws out and had learnt that biting was a no no.
And instead of her 12wk vaccination, we sent her on her way to the rainbow bridge. I felt like I had betrayed her and still do. It's been almost a week now and I still feel that way. I know there was nothing else that could be done but I miss her.
We have since gotten a new kitten, a 4 month old kitten that was left at the vet's. She hasn't been abused and is friendly. I just hope it goes better this time round.