Three years ago today, my mom died of cervical cancer. The bad thing is, it is also my Grandma's birthday but she is in the same nursing home (with alzheimers) that my mom was in. I feel so guilty for not going to see her on Mother's day, or her birthday...but, it's too hard. At one point, my mom, my grandma and my granddad were all there. Granddad ended up dying in the nursing home from heart failure (2 weeks before mom died)...but he was flirting with the nurses up to the end. Typical of him
It's just a really rough day for me. Mother's day was hard but today is even harder. It's just strange how things like this can sneak up on you. We have a new house that I would LOVE to show her. I still find myself wanting to tell her something...and I will suddenly remember she isn't here. I know I can tell her anyway and she hears, but it's not the same.
I just needed to vent. Sorry.
It's just a really rough day for me. Mother's day was hard but today is even harder. It's just strange how things like this can sneak up on you. We have a new house that I would LOVE to show her. I still find myself wanting to tell her something...and I will suddenly remember she isn't here. I know I can tell her anyway and she hears, but it's not the same.
I just needed to vent. Sorry.