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I don't know what's wrong with me these days, but I'm just not feeling well.
Before I finished school, I was physically stressed, working all day long every day. But somehow I managed to survive that.
Then since school has been finished about 2-3 weeks ago, I have been taking some time off to recover. I will need to start looking for a job soon. Actually I meant to start about a week ago and I barely did anything.
Anyways, since I've been out of school, I haven't been physically stressed (I've done some relaxation exercises and found very little physical tension... much less than usual) but I have been showing other signs of stress. I've had nightmares, difficulty sleeping....
And now I'm having a full blown anxiety attack. First one in... well... a long time.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm having a hard time dealing with being away from school and not really having a purpose anymore. Or maybe I'm being too hard on myself these days - I keep thinking that my grades at school were good... but not great (I worked as hard as I could, but maybe I'm just not smart enough), or that I'm selfish and lazy.
Or maybe it's just the usual job search stress (I HATE looking for jobs. I find it really stressful)
Before I finished school, I was physically stressed, working all day long every day. But somehow I managed to survive that.
Then since school has been finished about 2-3 weeks ago, I have been taking some time off to recover. I will need to start looking for a job soon. Actually I meant to start about a week ago and I barely did anything.
Anyways, since I've been out of school, I haven't been physically stressed (I've done some relaxation exercises and found very little physical tension... much less than usual) but I have been showing other signs of stress. I've had nightmares, difficulty sleeping....
And now I'm having a full blown anxiety attack. First one in... well... a long time.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm having a hard time dealing with being away from school and not really having a purpose anymore. Or maybe I'm being too hard on myself these days - I keep thinking that my grades at school were good... but not great (I worked as hard as I could, but maybe I'm just not smart enough), or that I'm selfish and lazy.
Or maybe it's just the usual job search stress (I HATE looking for jobs. I find it really stressful)