I'm not feeling well.

marie-p

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I don't know what's wrong with me these days, but I'm just not feeling well.
Before I finished school, I was physically stressed, working all day long every day. But somehow I managed to survive that.

Then since school has been finished about 2-3 weeks ago, I have been taking some time off to recover. I will need to start looking for a job soon. Actually I meant to start about a week ago and I barely did anything.

Anyways, since I've been out of school, I haven't been physically stressed (I've done some relaxation exercises and found very little physical tension... much less than usual) but I have been showing other signs of stress. I've had nightmares, difficulty sleeping....
And now I'm having a full blown anxiety attack. First one in... well... a long time.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm having a hard time dealing with being away from school and not really having a purpose anymore. Or maybe I'm being too hard on myself these days - I keep thinking that my grades at school were good... but not great (I worked as hard as I could, but maybe I'm just not smart enough), or that I'm selfish and lazy.

Or maybe it's just the usual job search stress (I HATE looking for jobs. I find it really stressful)

 

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it sounds like you're not in your familiar routine any longer and it's stressing you out. i'm sorry you're having such a rough time
hopefully things will get better sweetie.
 

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Just finishing school you now have to start a whole new life, that can be extremely overwhelming, but you can do it! When I get overwhelmed, it really helps me to write things down to help me focus on what I need to do and how I need to do it.

Sending many calming vibes for you on the next step in your life.
 

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I know how you feel. When I was in school or med tech program or both, I was constantly going, going, going. Somehow I found the time to get everything done. Now that I have been working for the last year and a half, I feel like I get less done, have more time, but am more tired. I don't know why. Now I have time to read, or to do the things I want to, but sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything.
Don't feel bad. Finding a job is stressful and it's always hard having to start over when you have been doing something else for years. Try to do something constructive. Look for jobs, but also, take time to do something for yourself.
 

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I'm sorry you aren't feeling so well.

Why don't you fix yourself a nice glass of your favorite adult beverage and go soak in the tub for a while? It may help to calm your nerves for a bit.
 
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thanks everyone


I'm feeling better this morning. I didn't sleep very well last night but I feel ok for now. I think I just really needed to vent. Until last night, I had been in denial about how stressed out I was and just acknowledging it helped.
 

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Glad you are feeling a little better
Take some time to relax and endulge in things that make you happy!
 

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Originally Posted by Essayons89

I'm sorry you aren't feeling so well.

Why don't you fix yourself a nice glass of your favorite adult beverage and go soak in the tub for a while? It may help to calm your nerves for a bit.
I like the way you think, Bryan!
 
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