I feel like I'm going to lose it this morning. First off, I get up and I have a splitting headache/migrane/neck strain thing all rolled into one that I get from time to time. I was up too late last night. Then I remember, Yay, it's Thursday, I get paid. Because I've been on disability from work I've been having some issues with my pay, and thought I got it straightened out but was anxious to just make sure. Last week was fine, hopefully this week was.
Needless to say I got shorted HALF my paycheck. I called work and talked to the clerk, who I'm really getting sick of because she makes me feel like I'm an idiot lately and I say "They screwed up again". She replies with a "No they didn't, you're on half pay" in a tone of voice like I should automatically already know that.
Apparently, and I know I was told this is the case when you're on disability, but I forgot and they never told me WHEN it was going to happen, but eventually after you've been out for a certain amount of time, you no longer get full pay benefits, only half. I'm not mad at either my employer or MetLife or whoever decides that, because it makes sense if you've been out for a super long time like I have, I'm mad because no one told me that "Ok this is the week that you'll go to half pay".
I feel terrible, this is all my fault. Yes I'm out for a legitimate reason, and I have to get better, but it's still my fault. I feel like I should just go back to work full time on April 9th, that's when I'm currently approved up to for benefits, any longer and I have to get an extension, cut my O.T. down to one day a week instead of two, and just deal with any problems I still have.
My only other option is I can go back to work part time, but get full pay through disability, but that has to be approved, and as far as I know it's a really short time period. After that I'd be back to half pay again.
So I don't know what to do. I'm tired of the problems I'm having and I want to get a reasonable amount of relief before I go back to normal but at the same time, I can't do this financially or mentally. We can pay our bills, but our savings each week wouldn't really exist because my half pay is really low and mentally I just can't take knowing I'm doing anything to put our finances in any sort of trouble. Plus, I just can't take my job anyway, and this just adds to the stress.
Needless to say I got shorted HALF my paycheck. I called work and talked to the clerk, who I'm really getting sick of because she makes me feel like I'm an idiot lately and I say "They screwed up again". She replies with a "No they didn't, you're on half pay" in a tone of voice like I should automatically already know that.
Apparently, and I know I was told this is the case when you're on disability, but I forgot and they never told me WHEN it was going to happen, but eventually after you've been out for a certain amount of time, you no longer get full pay benefits, only half. I'm not mad at either my employer or MetLife or whoever decides that, because it makes sense if you've been out for a super long time like I have, I'm mad because no one told me that "Ok this is the week that you'll go to half pay".
I feel terrible, this is all my fault. Yes I'm out for a legitimate reason, and I have to get better, but it's still my fault. I feel like I should just go back to work full time on April 9th, that's when I'm currently approved up to for benefits, any longer and I have to get an extension, cut my O.T. down to one day a week instead of two, and just deal with any problems I still have.
My only other option is I can go back to work part time, but get full pay through disability, but that has to be approved, and as far as I know it's a really short time period. After that I'd be back to half pay again.
So I don't know what to do. I'm tired of the problems I'm having and I want to get a reasonable amount of relief before I go back to normal but at the same time, I can't do this financially or mentally. We can pay our bills, but our savings each week wouldn't really exist because my half pay is really low and mentally I just can't take knowing I'm doing anything to put our finances in any sort of trouble. Plus, I just can't take my job anyway, and this just adds to the stress.