Thanks everyone.... I just never thought that I would ever live to see the day that my babies names would be in this forum. I appreciate all the support and love I've recieved thru PMs and in The Lounge. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense- I've just copied what I wrote to Karen in a PM, I can't relive the scenio again.
I'm just beside myself, I don't even know what to do, or think!
I was sleeping, and this morning around 8:45AM, there was a loud bang on my front door- it was the police, my landlord and a young lady from down the hall.
They asked me if any of my cats were missing- and I told them I didn't think so, but I would check- they said they found a gray fluffy cat dead in the hallway this morning. I told them it couldn't be Davidson- he wasn't that fluffy. But... I checked the whole apartment....nothing.
I knew it was him, I was crying frantically, calling John of course. The police went to the station, and brought him back... nad it was him I couldn't even look at him, I was crying so hard, and shaking- the cop probably thought I was insane.
I had my best friend over last night, and she left around 11PM... after she left, I had opened our front door to the hallway to fix the peep hole in our door, since it was loose- I shut the door,a nd went to bed, and fell asleep immediatly. I woke up in the middle of the night and thought it was strange that he hadn't come up to me for cuddles, but he was sleeping by the patio door when my friend left.
He must have darted out the front door w/o me even seeing him.
I feel so guilty for not checking on him before I went to bed. I always do- but I THOUGHT he was still sleeping by the other door... he has never once tried to get outside.
When they found him, he was bleeding from his mouth- and apparently there was a lot of noise in the hallway this morning around 4AM outside my neighbors door... she went to seee what happened around 5:30AM and found him, and called the cops
I just feel so guilty, that its my fault that this happened- I just cannot picture my sweet angel out there by himself, looking for Harley and mysefl.
I'm here by mysefl now with Harley- who is looking all over the apartment for Davidson. He's so lost without him already... I told him what happeend, but he went up to Davidson's bed and was lookign for him, and in all of his usual hiding spots. He keeps meowing really long and sad sounding... I feel miserable.
Its SO quiet without him here, he used to be my by side 24-7... Harley has been near me w/ cuddles all day... but right now he's laying down in Davidson's favorite spot in my closet
I just cannot wrap my mind around the idea that my little baby is gone.
He's just a little guy... not even 1 year old yet. He was MY baby, my sweet angel face, too young to become any else's angel. He was such a happy little guy, loved Harley and me. He was just warming up to John, letting him hold him, play with him. And now he's been taken from us.
I feel as tho I've lost my own child- he was MINE... always cuddling with me, asking for headbutts. I feel so alone sitting here without him on my lap, or harassing his brother... or sitting next to me begging for more wet food
RIP my sweet angel, meowmy misses you more than you can possibly imagine