so after the past few months of job switch, and ill cats I just feel so out right now. I had rough day at work just cause I am new and really can;t do much there yet and I hate feeling like "the lazy one" as I am asking every so often now what and get a two minute job and have to go ask for another. due to anxiety issues I really can't do anything on sales floor(heart races the minute I have to do anything out of my comfort zone. when I have free time at work I start thinking of my rb cats and just get more depressed... Have off tomorrow(just plan to sleep really-shopped for cats other day) Past few months has been a one after another time. And I miss my babies so much. I hate when you get it was just a cat and it lived long enough or get another-they are all so different I have had cats who share a few traits but none of them are doubles and it gets me so upset. I keep thinking of how I should have known sooner they were sick...jsut can't catch evertyhing as soon as if i only had a few cats(then i think maybe I am so wrong to have ANY let alone 24,, would they be better off somewhere else. I mean theya re so loved and vet wise taken care and all fixed. OK sorry for this little rant I just had to tho.
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2/18/07 at 5:30pm