I can't stop thinking about him

I know this isn't healthy, but I've been wandering around stores, looking at the cat care aisle, thinking of what could have been. I'm better, but I'm still hurting because he's gone. I still feel guilty and sad. I haven't cried for over a week, but the pain is still very much there. It still feels like my heart was ripped out. My behavior scares me a lot. I don't understand why I keep looking at catfood and other cat things. It's like some part of me thinks I still have a cat. I don't know what to do. I think about him constantly without realizing it. I keep replaying the time he was taken away in my mind. I just can't let go of this. It's only been two weeks, so I guess this is normal. I don't know when the pain will lessen.

I'm not on meds yet, and it's taking way too long. I don't get an appointment until the 6th to prescribe meds. I'm really screwed up right now.

Hugs for you!!! I hope the pain will lessen for you! You did the best thing for the kitty that you weren't ready to take care of. You need to take care of yourself first and a kitty will come later. There's a kitty out there for you when the time is right...trust me, it will find YOU!

Hang in there. The reason you are feeling the way you are is because of depression. Depression makes you feel and think totally irrationally.

You didn't do anything wrong by giving the kitten to someone else. You helped both of you. Once you get some counseling and medication for your depression things will start to improve for you

Originally Posted by Natalie_ca

Hang in there. The reason you are feeling the way you are is because of depression. Depression makes you feel and think totally irrationally.

You didn't do anything wrong by giving the kitten to someone else. You helped both of you. Once you get some counseling and medication for your depression things will start to improve for you

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I agree with this.

You did the right thing - for both of you. If it helps, remember that that means you did the right thing for the kitten despite how torn up you were about it.

Please give yourself a chance to get better. Once you have the meds you need and a treatment course, and you've given it time to start to work - you will notice a differnce. Try to be patient with yourself. You will get better, you just have to give this whole process time.

Originally Posted by Satai

You did the right thing - for both of you. If it helps, remember that that means you did the right thing for the kitten despite how torn up you were about it.

Please give yourself a chance to get better. Once you have the meds you need and a treatment course, and you've given it time to start to work - you will notice a differnce. Try to be patient with yourself. You will get better, you just have to give this whole process time.

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I thinks this is right, but I don't see any harm in buying a few toys or a pretty collar, for when you feel well enough to get another furry friend, it will give you something to look forward to.

I hope you feel better soon. We are all here for you when you need us.

Can you volunteer at the shelter to work with the cats? You did what was best for the both of you. Sometimes it hurts but take some comfort in knowing that kitty will find a family that can offer him what you felt you couldn't.