Right now Colin could really use some tcs vibes if ya'll don't mind sparing a few. This really is aweful. Just recently, a lot has been going on with the police dpt. he works for. A lot of the higher ranking officers there are being jerks to Colin because of his past. Colin was a naval lt. before taking on this job and his rank in the navy was higher than the rank of the top guy at the police station. Needless to say, Colin went from being a higher ranking naval lt. to the bottom of the totem pole when he chased after his dream of becomming a cop. Not only did he take a 65-70% pay cut when he switched jobs, he also got a lot of questions too....like "why would a lt. want to be a cop?" stuff like that. To which he always defended that he loves helping people and that's where he feels God wants him. Well recently, some jerks that are at the top of the chain at the dpt have been picking on Colin because they think it's "funny" someone who was a higher rank than they ever were is now their "girl" so to speak. It's aweful. To the point that they're scrutinizing his every move. He also is getting a lot of grief because he has a degree as well and a lot of the other officers do not. It's really starting to stress Colin out to the point that he's talking about looking for another job. Now that is really stressing me out as well- i'm ready to settle down and start a family....that's not gonna happen if he can't provide for us and have a steady job. (keep in mind, i do pull my own weight- i'm working towards my dental degree so that i can bring a bright future to the table as well.) I don't know what we're going to do now.
/ Tonight after work he stoped by the house for a minute and told me some more things that happened today and said that he was going to meet with some other officers for a bit tonight to talk about some things. So I guess he won't be back for a few more hours. I feel so bad for him- he's so upset over this. He knows i'll support him and be there for him no matter what....so maybe that's a little comforting to him...i hope. / The thing is, i don't really know how to help him right now other than just being there for him when he wants to talk and listening. He's kinda angry at the world right now and isn't really receptive to "I love you, i'm there for you no matter what happens" right now. He knows i love him and will stick by his side, but he's kinda just so stressed right now it doesn't matter to him, or at least it seems that way.....now for the kicker....he's really wanting to do something on the federal level again like the US Marshalls- which has me absolutely freaking out- i'm trying to find as much info on them as i can...but from what i've researched so far, it's very dangerous depending on what his specific job would be, they travel a lot, they relocate a lot....and several other things that i'm totally NOT wanting to go through. He knows this. So i guess we'll just wait and see what happens. I really hope they can sort some things out tonight and that he will stick with the police thing at least for a while longer. (he says he won't leave until he's definite he has something else). I just don't know how to help him right now other than being here for him- any suggestions would be welcomed.
If everyone could really send some prayers and vibes Colin's way, I would be so greatful. He's really having it rough right now.
