First off.....take a deep breath and calm down sweetie! I recently had EVERYTHING under the sun done...and I'm still alive and kicking
You can get through this. I have IBS (which is a spaztic colon), Gastroparesis (delayed stomach emptying...and also, my pancrias (sp?) doesn't produce enough enzymes to digest my food, so I have to take pills with everything i eat...it's really not too bad), lactose intolerance, severe GERD, a Hiatial Hernia. I knew something was seriously wrong when i went from a 00- to a 10 in less than 6 months! I was eating healthy and working out regurally....and strangly gaining large amounts of weight and my stomach stayed bloated! In order to figure out what was wrong, my gastroenterologist put me through a ton of tests...and at time i was scared too because I didn't know what was wrong. I had a colonoscopy, upper GI endoscopy, Barium test, Gastric Emptying Study, CT Scan, Ultrasound, MRI, Fecal Test (i can't believe i admited that lol), Celica Test, Diabeties Tests, Bravo PH monitor implanted on m esophagus......and several other tests I can't remember! I have been a human guenie pig for the past year! It's been crazy! So I definitely understand how you feel. The main thing to remember with a colonoscopy- is that the prep is worse than the actual colonospy! If you have an upper and lower endoscopy done at the same time, they will knock you out (with an iv)....so you will be asleep the entire time if you ask to be completely sedated- that's what I did because I had several tests done at the same time. I recommend that. With the prep....they will give you two options, one is a liquid, one is a pill- for the love of all things feline! Take the Pills!!! They won't taste nearly as bad as the liquid. What you will do is about 2 days before the procedure, you will go on an all liquid diet with no red or purple juices( they can dye the lining of your colon and make it look like it is bleeding). I suggest buying some bullon cubes (not the stuff in the box- it's gross)...and eating that, also drink lots of gatoraid and you can have banana popcicles as well as some jello and other things like Ensure. The day before you can only have straight liquids. That night, you start taking all of your laxatives...if you do the pills, you have to take a lot of them at one time...about every 15 minutes....I suggest buying some Cottonelle Fresh Wipes- they will be a lot easier on your bottom than regular TP especially if you have hemmhriod issues. Also, purchase some Tucks pads as well. I suggest stocking up on some magazines and scented candles...you're not going to be able to leave the bathroom for a while. If you can, try to make your colonoscopy appointment as early in the morning as you can get it so you won't be hungry all day. You can eat whatever you want after the procedure is over so long as you feel like it. You will have a bit of bloating and gas after the procedure- this is normal and it goes away after the first day....you may cramp a bit...but nothing serious. You are going to be just fine sweetie! Don't stress! A colonoscopy is really not as bad as it sounds...because you don't remember it....the only bad thing is the prep....once you get through that, the actual procedure is soo easy! When you do have the procedure done, you will need to have someone there to drive you home because you will be a bit sedated from the drugs when you wake up. Other than that you should be fine....your doctor knows what she's doing and will take wonderful care of you. Please don't stress over colon cancer - many times IBS and other problems can cause similar symptoms. Wait until you have a diagnosis- don't stress now! Also, make sure you're well hydrated during the prep so that you do not become dehydrated! You are gonna do just fine! No worries! Please feel free to pm me if you have any questions. I've been there and I understand- I'd be happy to talk to you if you need a friend to walk you through it.
Also, what part of TN do you live in??? I live in Memphis. I went to The Gastroentorology Center of the Midsouth. My doctor is wonderful and always takes the time to answer your questions and walk you through things.