Thank you all for your thoughts. No, KittenKiya, to be honest I'm not ok. I don't really expect to be anytime soon either. I've lost pets before, usually to old age. It's not easy but it's something you know is bound to happen and you can say that it's time had come and it had a nice life...
I just wanted to warn all cat lovers so hopefully they won't have to go through what I'm going through now. My oldest cat (16 years old) was the most lovable little calico you could ever want. She was a sweet little cat who only weighed about 6 pounds. I also have dogs and the dogs apparently...
