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Hi everyone. I recently brought two new kittens into my home, and I really need a place to unload how I'm feeling because I'm not coping very well at all.
I'm a huge cat lover. I've owned cats all my life. I've fostered cats. I've personally rehomed strays. I've tracked down and captured missing cats and got them safely home. I live in a street of cat lovers, and I cat-sit for multiple neighbours when they're away.
This year I lost my absolute best friend, my sweet black cat, and it absolutely wrecked me. Months later, and I still haven't gone a single day without sobbing.
I felt like no cat could ever measure up to her, but I'd never gone so long without a cat, and I hated it. So I made the decision to start meeting some furry friends.
I didn't want to rush into anything, so I visited several litters, and finally ended up adopting two sisters. I realise now that this was a mistake. I thought I was ready, but I'm really, really not.
I feel sick saying this, but I don't love these kittens. I don't feel anything for them at all, just a detached indifference, which I've never felt for any cat/kitten that I've adopted before.
I've literally been sobbing on and off throughout every day since I brought them home. I've had to take time off my job because I can't stop crying. I'm psychologically and emotionally exhausted.
Don't get me wrong - I'm making sure that these kittens are taken care of. I won't show them how I feel, but I'm terrified they'll sense it anyway because cats are smart like that.
God, I hate saying this, but I'm thinking about rehoming them. I want what's best for them, and I desperately want to love them, but I can't seem to find a single spark of affection for them. I just feel nothing.
But they deserve to be loved, and I don't think I'll ever be able to give them that.
I feel like the worst person in the world, but would it be better for them if I found them a new home?
I'm a huge cat lover. I've owned cats all my life. I've fostered cats. I've personally rehomed strays. I've tracked down and captured missing cats and got them safely home. I live in a street of cat lovers, and I cat-sit for multiple neighbours when they're away.
This year I lost my absolute best friend, my sweet black cat, and it absolutely wrecked me. Months later, and I still haven't gone a single day without sobbing.
I felt like no cat could ever measure up to her, but I'd never gone so long without a cat, and I hated it. So I made the decision to start meeting some furry friends.
I didn't want to rush into anything, so I visited several litters, and finally ended up adopting two sisters. I realise now that this was a mistake. I thought I was ready, but I'm really, really not.
I feel sick saying this, but I don't love these kittens. I don't feel anything for them at all, just a detached indifference, which I've never felt for any cat/kitten that I've adopted before.
I've literally been sobbing on and off throughout every day since I brought them home. I've had to take time off my job because I can't stop crying. I'm psychologically and emotionally exhausted.
Don't get me wrong - I'm making sure that these kittens are taken care of. I won't show them how I feel, but I'm terrified they'll sense it anyway because cats are smart like that.
God, I hate saying this, but I'm thinking about rehoming them. I want what's best for them, and I desperately want to love them, but I can't seem to find a single spark of affection for them. I just feel nothing.
But they deserve to be loved, and I don't think I'll ever be able to give them that.
I feel like the worst person in the world, but would it be better for them if I found them a new home?